Twin Flame Connections-Highest Od'ing of Spiritual Love

Feeling a tethered pull towards a particular person? Unknowingly feeling energetically connected and obsessively thinking about someone? Am I losing my mind? Questioning yourself, umpteen times, why do I feel this way for him/her and not finding any logical reasoning attached? You have found yourself in a twin flame connection. Twin flame is one soul that is split into two halves existing in different human bodies.

Now that the same soul is present in two different bodies,when they meet,how does it feel? It feels like you are viewing yourself in a mirror. Hence in spiritual terms, it is known as mirrored souls. Twin flames are mirrored souls that help us see our deepest insecurities,fears, shadows and shortcomings that we have within us.

The common running theme in a twin flame relationship is romance(which is short-lived, I must say).The beginning stages of the relationship was straight out from the fiction books of Mills and Boon, and this is exactly what I experienced where there was a feeling of dreaminess,felt utterly allured and intense romance.There is a lot of passion and feeling of being in la-la land.I felt like I have fallen hard for someone so deeply,like I have never felt before.Back and forth texting, flirting,sending updates of our daily schedules,complimenting on profile pictures,sending pictures of food that was cooked(we both love cooking and eating delectable food). This phase went on for 8 months. Felt like I had found the perfect match. But there were many underlying issues in the connection. One of them was that we have an age gap of 8 years,that is a big obstacle in Indian tradition.

The honeymoon stage felt like I was floating in a beam of light with him.Soon the fizzling out of the honeymoon stage was observed. And, bam! came in the crisis stage of the connection. We both started fearing the intensity and closeness growing upon us. Some questions of insecurities that I felt were, "why does he like me,I don't event have a good model-like body?',"I do not look pretty enough, there are much prettier girls out there?","I am way older than him, he can get anybody his age who is way more chalant". These thoughts started creeping in and this begun the onset of triggering stage. The overflow of emotions started overpowering my logic and I began to become clingy and needy in the connection. The clinginess stage was a spiraling effect of deep-seated insecurities that surfaced within me. There was immense lashing out in anger, fights between us that turned heavy and burdensome on the mind and mental health.

One major theme that we mirrored toward each other is:I am not good enough for you and I am not worthy enough for your love. This was even discussed between the person and me which of course,resulted in futility. Common themes observed were:

#1 Blocking one another on social media.

#2 Ghosting out.

#3 Cutting off communication and contact.

#4 Questioning intentions.

#5 Immense arguments.

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This common dynamic of the runner-chaser phase is still on-going in our connection.I have lost my mind and my sanity trying to figure out this connection. It has been a soul-ripping experience for me. Not to forget, the countless amount of research on twin flames and soul-mates, several tarot card reading sessions on Youtube and personal reading sessions as well,undergoing the dark night of the soul, (I have written about my experience in my previous article) have just been stepping stones to the awakenings I have received which are known as 'spiritual downloads'.

Okay,so now that I have spoken about spiritual downloads. I will link this to telepathic communication between him( my twin soul) and me. This is yet another common theme in the twin flames who are in separation. I have been on this journey since 2017 i.e. 4 years. In these 4 years, there have been umpteen ups and downs in our connection,also we have not seen each other in person till date. Whenever I speak to him or he wants to speak to me, I feel this sudden wave of energy and body chills and we converse with each other. Once the conversation is over, I get on with my routine work. Sounds other worldly,doesn't it?

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Also,let me share my experience of the 'runner-chaser dynamic' in our relationship. I have been the chaser and he has been the runner. Being the matured one (older in age and in experience), I have always tried to keep in contact and he has been the 'runner'.We have had many cycles of coming together and separating.

Sometimes, I also get these sudden cheek biting which is rapid where in my teeth keep nibbling on my inner cheek,while I am carrying out my daily chores. And,I realise that he is telepathically communicating with me and vice-versa and I can even hear his thoughts. Seeing common numbers 333,11:11,222 has been a chore.Once the conversation is over between us in the 5D ,I get back to normalcy.It sounds eerie,doesn't it. I too didn't believe this was happening inside of me, until when I started reading about telepathic communication amongst twin souls.

Also,when I rewind back to our connection where we started off as friends,I recollect the eye contact we used to have in our class sessions. The eye contact was scary as there was just gazing and gazing to a point where we could see each others souls.

Looking at this dynamic, I have finally come to the realization that surrendering to the Universe is the answer. I have had this new found sense of inner peace and zen. In a twin flame relationship, the soul knows that we are connected with our twin flame in the 5D (the telepathy,that I spoke about). It is the mind and our conscious state that keeps looking for validations and is worrisome.